Isn’t it Weird?

What I find really weird is having all these mixed emotions about the trip, when I know in the end, it will all work itself out. Is it weird, having traveled three places, I still experience the anxiety of going to a totally new place. This is probably completely typical. I mean, When you can’t expect much, it leaves a lot to worry about. However, once I arrive at my destination, it’s hard for me to want to ever leave. So, where does this come from? I’m moving on, while looking back.

My job of ResNet was a thing of my past. Not to say, I do not enjoy the current position. I actually cherrish it, and I love being able to come back. I love to help my brother, his future coworkers, and pass on my institutional memory for their success. Not to mention, I enjoy meeting new people from the dorms and work. However, there is a flip side, and here it is…

While walking down many of these halls of past places I used to live at, I can’t help but feel some sort of scared disposition in moving on. You walk down halls you used to live in. I mean, I lived in 3 out of 5 halls of one dormitory for 3 years. You can’t just erase memories attached to those walls. People I meet just talking about new experiences, or their experiences that I did or did not have. I can’t help but feel some longing to be at UNI again. I know it won’t ever be the same or can never be again, but for those moments you almost feel they could. I know this is what I want, but I’m leaving some great people behind. Knowing this trip will be longer has played its role on me. I can’t help but feel that I’m going to be missing out on seeing some of these amazing people I met from China. I would love to spend even more time just getting all that I can out of these relationships. However, in the end, there has to be some growing up done.

I wish I could write more, but I have to head out with a friend, a good friend, who I’ll also miss a lot too.

A Long Awaited Update

So, after a long journey to China… I was very lackluster in response, I apologize. While traveling to China, my blog was censored by the Chinese government. Therefore, I was no longer able to post new comments. So, I guess the thing I feared the most about my blog, came true. Only after I have returned home, have my friends from China told me how to get around it. I do not have the time or energy to tell you everything that occurred in China, but I will say I had a blast. It was so dynamically different from Poland and the Czech Republic because of the culture. I’ve never had such a change in so many ways. From eating, going to the bathroom, driving, sports and many others were so visibly different than the USA and Europe. Of course, the change is due to going to a non-western society. Even though this was the case, they sure knew of NBA, the NBA was huge there. So, I advise anyone traveling there to brush up on their basketball skills and knowledge of the sport. I can’t stress that one enough.

While in China, I believe I found out more about myself, my way of life, and what I want in life more than I have in a long time. Not to mention, I met some amazing friends along the way. It’s hard to compare two different trips that were so different, but I experienced more personal growth this time. Teaching kids english was a very rewarding experience and I can’t stress that enough to anyone leaning towards teaching. Only after I returned home, have I learned of the vast number of opportunities with teaching domestically and internationally. I never knew teaching had so many opportunities. However, with these opportunities comes restrictions in the ease of getting certifications and qualifications required for the teaching.

Some of the things I won’t forget about China were the people. They all treated me with the most respect, dignity, and graciousness I’ve ever had in my life. I felt like I was on another level to these kids, teachers, and other people. All of us teachers were somehow on a higher level than most commoners. Not only this, but they showed us it all the time. I couldn’t feel more honored. Secondly, the teaching assistants were amazing. All of them were some of the coolest people I will ever probably meet. In only 3 weeks, our bonds will probably last a life time. I will always be quite deeply moved for their help, their appreciation, and their loving friendship. Third, the kids and the learning. I absolutely loved teaching kids and watching them grow as individuals. Sure, teaching has its struggles, but behind those there can be silver lining.

So, as my life move forwards to my next venture in Costa Rica to learn Spanish, I change my header. Along with this, I will post more often. I should “hopefully” (fingers crossed) have faster internet down there. I really hope so, China’s was pretty slow. I should have my own laptop too, as well, which should help me being able to find other internet sources. Thank you for all family members, extended family members, friends, and listeners for your extended support in the absence. I hope you enjoy my blog, and I hope it brings joy, entertainment, and personal growth as this traveling has for me.

I’m currently trying to figure out the avenue of teaching I will pursue. I will try and keep you up to date as I progress along. I have a lot still to do, and I will be working starting Wed. here doing Resnet for about 4 days at the college. It will provide me some cash, and will help out my brother. A big win, win for both of us.

Talk to you hopefully sooner than later. Thanks for all your support once again.